Saturday, May 15, 2010

Almost Done....

We are well past the half way mark, which brings many emotions. Of course i want my man home and i cant wait, but that also means its time to leave CA. These past 9 months have been hard to explain and to deal with so i am so thankful to those who have been supportive. Deployment life has not been what i was expecting although i guess i have to admit that i didn't know what to expect haha. For the past 3 years many people have told me "i don't know how you deal with it, you seem so strong." for a couple of reason. (obvious to those who know my family) the truth is most days i don't feel strong...at all, but i guess you learn how to deal with it when there is no other way. Alisha was taken from us and Nolen was deployed, there was nothing i could do about either situation, but decide that i would keep going. My strength is not my own. I have a strong faith that i can get through anything with the help of our savior. I am scared for change and don't deal with it well, so leaving CA for the un-known will be difficult. I have yet to figure out how my "career" will work but I'm excited to go if it means being with the man i love, and becoming a family with him. There isn't anyone id rather do that with than Nolen Ryan Alatorre. I'm proud of him and although military life so far hasn't been easy i couldn't love it more. I respect and admire those who leave their families to defend our country, to allow us to live in a place where we can worship as we please and receive an education! I admire those wives and families of our soldiers who make the sacrifices also, and i couldn't be more proud to be apart of that life.


oh and did i mention....
NOT MUCH LONGER TILL I HAVE MY BABY HOME!!! WAHOOO!!!